All bolded parts are emphasized by me unless otherwise stated.
Funny I was curious to see what Google had to say about, "Feeling like I don't belong in this world." i knew I'd find ALOT of ppl who feel the same way. But still, it bothers me that so many of us feel like we don't belong. Or that we are alone. We are most definitely not alone. But we feel lonely because it seems like everyone else is going about their business properly as Society would have us live for it's own survival. Yet, here we are struggling to maintain sanity. Struggling to be decent and live decent lives. I have always, since a child, felt like I didn't belong here. I questioned everything to the point of getting into loads of trouble. Hated school to the point where I'd ditch and end up having to make up the work to pass in the end. I didn't see the point in learning and filling my head with lies as history books tend to do. I knew, without understanding the weight of 'knowing', everything about this "world" or society was a lie. I've gone through tremendous amounts of depression, none of the medications helped. They only masked my emotions which made me want to die even more. I'd wish every night that god, someone, would come rescue me from this world. I prayed to Death to come and embrace me. I tried taking my own life a few times and failed, obviously. ALL this because I hated living in this world. How could ppl be satisfied or happy in it while so many suffer. How can one enjoy a wonderful meal while next to them, an old man with newspaper wrapped round his feet is sitting and starving? Yes there are some heart of gold ppl who would share their meal with him, but there are a whole lot more who wouldn't. That makes me feel so sick to my stomach. It's a world covered in crap, with confection sugar and confetti sprinkled on top. Where nearly everyone Lies and unsung Heros Die. But where is home?"
"I for one have tried to fit in, not fit in, fight the 'powers that be', not fight them, resign myself and then unresign myself - want money and feel confident I will get it, but then unwant it before I even can get close because I can't be fake enough to get there...
I don't know
that would be my motto for here
I don't know."
-bloo (can't remember exactly where I found this but I think it was on this forum: http://isis.phpbb3now.com/)
"I hate the world and almost all the people in it. I hate the Labour Congress and the journalists who send men to be slaughtered, and the fathers who feel a smug pride when their sons are killed, and even the pacifists who keep saying human nature is essentially good, in spite of all the daily proofs to the contrary. I hate the planet and the human race - I am ashamed to belong to such a species."
- Bertrand Russell